Alright, Hi, blah blah blah, fuck the intro, you all came for one reason, a blog!
So you may be thinking what actually is my problem, im doing OK in school,
I have a bunch of people around me who love me and whom have earnt my love and trust,
I have a thriving social life, Im happy with the person I am, So umm explanation your asking .. ?
Heres my one big point .. No matter how much positive karma, or no matter how glowing your aura is, and no matter what positive vibes you send out and all that rest of that shit -
You are NO better than those forces around you!
Using happiness as a mask to everything is how I cope with things, and as such, i have been branded with the happy, hyper homo-human! However, as youve probably picked up on, This blog isnt exactly preaching world peace!
Emotion is my theme, poetry tries to put it on paper, songs try and put it to a melody for our ears to decode, psychology puts it down to messed up chemicals and social infleunces, but what causes it, we really need to think how we let it end up so fucked up!
People + Emotions = ONE HELL OF A DRAMA! .. I feel as though, people dont know their emotions, and emotions dont know their people, we ALL need to look in the mirror, into our eyes and get a clue!
If you wanna be happy, then think happy ..
If you wanna be in love, then think of love ..
If you wanna sit there and sob, then make sure you learn a lesson ..
I cant stand those who blissfully ignore their emotions and then whinge when they do have a cry about it .. GET IT OUT!! ILL REPEAT MYSELF UNTIL YOU GET THE MESSAGE! LET IT OUT, LET IT OUT, LET IT OUT! .. OR LORD HELP ME I WILL DRAGGGGG IT OUT OF YOUUUU!
Shake it off .. NOONE can make you feel anything you dont want to feel, but people do affect us .. If you give off negativity you attract negativity, If you give off positivity, you attract positiveity, if your neutral, you get neutral .. If your around negative people, your gonna be effected either way, same if you with positive people ..
Its as simple as tht sweetheart!
Please, i didnt want to shout, but i am so tired of acting like am empath, i have my own shit to deal with, and i want to help you, i try to help you, shit i NEED to help you, But please, please, PLEASE .. DO .. NOT .. WASTE .. MY .. TIME! I dont have the energy, i dont have the breath, i dont have a care!
I am at the mercy of other people alot, but i place myself in that position, because I like a challenge!
Im hapy to help anyone who is willinging to help themselves, if your not willinging to help yourself, im not willinging to help you"
POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE! POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE! POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE!
I am going to get through to you, one way or another .. try this ..
Stand in front of a mirror and say that 100 times a day .. everytime something bad happens, think about it, everytime some smart mouth cow says something, just rise above it,
"Sweetheart your stronger than them and youd better believe it, dont let them ruin the prom, this is your reward baby!"
Lots of love and im sorry for yelling but some people really need to control their emotions ..
*Clap clap* for those who do
WISE UP! for those who dont!
Until next rant .. hugs and kisses
By Martyn David
xoxo
P.s POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE BABY, PLEASE HAVE MERCY, YOUR DRIVING ME CRAZYYYYYYY!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
It Is Better To Have Love And Lost?
What Do You Think?
Just Seems To Me That The World Is So Contradictionary In Alot Of Ways And Im Sick Of It!
Argument -
If I Loved You, The You Left, Ive Lost You, But Ill ALWAYS Love You ..
So Yes I Know What Love Feels Like And I Can Say Ive Been In Love Before In This Scenario,
But Thats Means Ultimately You Miss It, Like Ive Said Before "Absence Doesnt Make The Heart Grow Fonder, It Just Leaves It To Wonder" You Shouldnt Need Love To Leave So You Can Miss It Enough To Want It Back For Good (Want You Back, Want You, Want You Back For Good) You Should Want It Regardless, Love Is A Beautiful Thing, But Most Beautiful Things Are Fragile And Rare Dear, And You Might Have To Learn That The Hard Way.
If You Dont Give Me Your Love And You Dont Express It, Im Gonna Be Left Thinking "What Is Going On In Your Head" And Personally Its A GAME I Dont Enjoy .. MIND READERS! Im Just Left Confused, Not Knowing Where I Stand - A Great Hero Once Said "Give Me One Steady Piece Of Land And I Will Move The Earth" Well Please, Give Me One Straight Answers And I Will Love You, Its That Complicated, Simple!
In Contrast, If Youve Never Laughed, Frankly You Dont Know What Your Missing, So You DONT Miss It, Cant Miss What Youve Never Had Right?
BUT (Yes You Should Of Learnt By Now, NOTHING I Blog Is Straight-Forward) .. You Always Want What You Dont Have And Its Basic Human Nature To Want What Other People Have.
Heres What Im Whinging About, MIXED SIGNALS! - I ALWAYS Go On About Playing Games, Games Are Fun, Playing Isnt! It Just Bugs Me That You Can Know What You Want, With Who, And When, Yet Another Person Can Be A Complete MESS And STILL Have More Luck Than You, Its Lunacy! I Just Wish People Would Sort Out There Emotions For Once :(
Im Not Saying Everyone Has To Know Exactly What They Want, When, How, Where, Why Etc .. But If Your Dont, Please Dont Pretend Your Ready And Utterly Stable, Just Be Up Front About It - I Really Just Think Weve All Fallen Into This Trap Called "Self-Perception" We See Ourselves As Things We Are Not, We Become False, We Fail At This Image, Bring Others Down With Us And Probably Waste Useful Time :/
Sorry This Isnt The Most Positive Blog, But Heres The Thing, Some People Just Really Need To Grow Up Before They Speak Up ...
"I Had You, I Lost You, Im Over You, I Dont Need You, Doesnt Mean I Dont Want You"
Thanks For Reading
Lots Of Love
xoxo
By Martyn S L David
Just Seems To Me That The World Is So Contradictionary In Alot Of Ways And Im Sick Of It!
Argument -
If I Loved You, The You Left, Ive Lost You, But Ill ALWAYS Love You ..
So Yes I Know What Love Feels Like And I Can Say Ive Been In Love Before In This Scenario,
But Thats Means Ultimately You Miss It, Like Ive Said Before "Absence Doesnt Make The Heart Grow Fonder, It Just Leaves It To Wonder" You Shouldnt Need Love To Leave So You Can Miss It Enough To Want It Back For Good (Want You Back, Want You, Want You Back For Good) You Should Want It Regardless, Love Is A Beautiful Thing, But Most Beautiful Things Are Fragile And Rare Dear, And You Might Have To Learn That The Hard Way.
If You Dont Give Me Your Love And You Dont Express It, Im Gonna Be Left Thinking "What Is Going On In Your Head" And Personally Its A GAME I Dont Enjoy .. MIND READERS! Im Just Left Confused, Not Knowing Where I Stand - A Great Hero Once Said "Give Me One Steady Piece Of Land And I Will Move The Earth" Well Please, Give Me One Straight Answers And I Will Love You, Its That Complicated, Simple!
In Contrast, If Youve Never Laughed, Frankly You Dont Know What Your Missing, So You DONT Miss It, Cant Miss What Youve Never Had Right?
BUT (Yes You Should Of Learnt By Now, NOTHING I Blog Is Straight-Forward) .. You Always Want What You Dont Have And Its Basic Human Nature To Want What Other People Have.
Heres What Im Whinging About, MIXED SIGNALS! - I ALWAYS Go On About Playing Games, Games Are Fun, Playing Isnt! It Just Bugs Me That You Can Know What You Want, With Who, And When, Yet Another Person Can Be A Complete MESS And STILL Have More Luck Than You, Its Lunacy! I Just Wish People Would Sort Out There Emotions For Once :(
Im Not Saying Everyone Has To Know Exactly What They Want, When, How, Where, Why Etc .. But If Your Dont, Please Dont Pretend Your Ready And Utterly Stable, Just Be Up Front About It - I Really Just Think Weve All Fallen Into This Trap Called "Self-Perception" We See Ourselves As Things We Are Not, We Become False, We Fail At This Image, Bring Others Down With Us And Probably Waste Useful Time :/
Sorry This Isnt The Most Positive Blog, But Heres The Thing, Some People Just Really Need To Grow Up Before They Speak Up ...
"I Had You, I Lost You, Im Over You, I Dont Need You, Doesnt Mean I Dont Want You"
Thanks For Reading
Lots Of Love
xoxo
By Martyn S L David
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Social Systems - Group Rules, Rule Groups.
Ok,
So We ALL Know That Different People In Our Groups Have Different Things About Them,
There Are Some Things You Say To One Person That Youd NEVER Say To Another,
Theres Some People Who You Can Talk To Seriously And Some Who Are There As Much Loved Entertainment,
There Are Those Who We Are So Hard On And Others Whom We NEVER Confront.
Im A VERY Facetious Person, Ill Do Anything To Avoid Confrontation, I Want To Be Everyones Friend And Ill Do Anything To Keep You Smiling,
But Heres The Thing .. NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE THAT.
Its A Weird Science "Physcogetusedtoyalogy" Or Theres The More Complicated On "Psychosocialinteractivity" Translation - We Learn To Love Our Friends, For Everything They Are, Everything There Not, Everything They Do, Everything They Dont, Everything They Say And Everything They Dont Say - But That Takes Time!
For Example - Imagine The Following People Are In A Group - The Queen Bee, The Queen Bee Equal, The Quiet One, The Boy Whose An All Rounder Etc Etc ..
You Would Never DREAM Of Purposely And Knowingly Annoying The Queen Bee, Because She Will Make You The Least Popular Person In The Group - However You Would Maybe Do It To The All Rounder Or Quiet One, Because You Can, There Passive And There Not Directly Linked To The Top! (I Know Im Making All Friendship Groups Sound Very Corporate And Plastic But Its Just A Funny Way To Describe Them!)
HOWEVER - Clause - You May NOT Do This To The Quiet One Incesently Because They Usually Are In Good Standing With The Queen So If You Get To Them, They Have The Queens Ear! Like Their Advisors!
In The Same Way There Are People You Only Talk To For The Aim Of Having Fun, Other People You Go Too With Problems, You Wouldnt Ask A Stupid Person About Quantum Physics Would You?! Same Principal Really
But Thats A Rather Narrow Analysis, If You Look At It In A Broader Context, You Have To Challenge Social Groups ..
For The Sake Of Discussion, Lets Use The LGBT Community As An Example ..
Boys - Feminine, Whimps, Good Fashion Sense, Wear Makeup, Dress As Women, Like Musicals, Idolize Britney Spears/Madonna/Cher (You Get The Jist) Sex Obsessed, Abnormal, Have High Voices, Want To Work In Entertainment, Have Bad Morals Etc Etc Etc Blah Blah Blah
Girls - Butch, Piercings, Tattoos, Short Hair, Agressive, Boring Style Etc Etc Blah Blah
True, These "Stereotypes" Can Be True And Alot Of Those Characteristics Are Inforced, But With These Preconceptions, You Form An Image That COULD Be Wrong And Usually Is.
Its Applies In ALL Areas Where Something Works As A Group Or Collection Of Individuals ..
My Point Of Course Is, If We Think These Things Then We Become Fooled Into A System - Its Almost Like A Game, It May Take The Rest Of Your Life To Learn The Rules, You Win Some, You Lose Some, Youll Hopefully Make Mistakes To Learn And Grow ..
BUT WHY PLAY GAMES?! I Dont Want To And I Try Not To,
"People And Their Emotions, Opinions, Personalities And Everything They Are Is Not Something To Be Played With, Theyre NOT Our Toys, And You Play Games With Toys"
So I Hope You Saw My Point, I Know This Has Been Quite A LONG Blog But It Had To Be Said, Because Trully ..
If Rules Are Set, We Are Ruled By Them, If Groups Are Formed, We Are Grouped
Get It. Good. Goodbye :)
Tilll nexty time ..
By Martyn S L David
Loves xoxo
So We ALL Know That Different People In Our Groups Have Different Things About Them,
There Are Some Things You Say To One Person That Youd NEVER Say To Another,
Theres Some People Who You Can Talk To Seriously And Some Who Are There As Much Loved Entertainment,
There Are Those Who We Are So Hard On And Others Whom We NEVER Confront.
Im A VERY Facetious Person, Ill Do Anything To Avoid Confrontation, I Want To Be Everyones Friend And Ill Do Anything To Keep You Smiling,
But Heres The Thing .. NOT EVERYONE IS LIKE THAT.
Its A Weird Science "Physcogetusedtoyalogy" Or Theres The More Complicated On "Psychosocialinteractivity" Translation - We Learn To Love Our Friends, For Everything They Are, Everything There Not, Everything They Do, Everything They Dont, Everything They Say And Everything They Dont Say - But That Takes Time!
For Example - Imagine The Following People Are In A Group - The Queen Bee, The Queen Bee Equal, The Quiet One, The Boy Whose An All Rounder Etc Etc ..
You Would Never DREAM Of Purposely And Knowingly Annoying The Queen Bee, Because She Will Make You The Least Popular Person In The Group - However You Would Maybe Do It To The All Rounder Or Quiet One, Because You Can, There Passive And There Not Directly Linked To The Top! (I Know Im Making All Friendship Groups Sound Very Corporate And Plastic But Its Just A Funny Way To Describe Them!)
HOWEVER - Clause - You May NOT Do This To The Quiet One Incesently Because They Usually Are In Good Standing With The Queen So If You Get To Them, They Have The Queens Ear! Like Their Advisors!
In The Same Way There Are People You Only Talk To For The Aim Of Having Fun, Other People You Go Too With Problems, You Wouldnt Ask A Stupid Person About Quantum Physics Would You?! Same Principal Really
But Thats A Rather Narrow Analysis, If You Look At It In A Broader Context, You Have To Challenge Social Groups ..
For The Sake Of Discussion, Lets Use The LGBT Community As An Example ..
Boys - Feminine, Whimps, Good Fashion Sense, Wear Makeup, Dress As Women, Like Musicals, Idolize Britney Spears/Madonna/Cher (You Get The Jist) Sex Obsessed, Abnormal, Have High Voices, Want To Work In Entertainment, Have Bad Morals Etc Etc Etc Blah Blah Blah
Girls - Butch, Piercings, Tattoos, Short Hair, Agressive, Boring Style Etc Etc Blah Blah
True, These "Stereotypes" Can Be True And Alot Of Those Characteristics Are Inforced, But With These Preconceptions, You Form An Image That COULD Be Wrong And Usually Is.
Its Applies In ALL Areas Where Something Works As A Group Or Collection Of Individuals ..
My Point Of Course Is, If We Think These Things Then We Become Fooled Into A System - Its Almost Like A Game, It May Take The Rest Of Your Life To Learn The Rules, You Win Some, You Lose Some, Youll Hopefully Make Mistakes To Learn And Grow ..
BUT WHY PLAY GAMES?! I Dont Want To And I Try Not To,
"People And Their Emotions, Opinions, Personalities And Everything They Are Is Not Something To Be Played With, Theyre NOT Our Toys, And You Play Games With Toys"
So I Hope You Saw My Point, I Know This Has Been Quite A LONG Blog But It Had To Be Said, Because Trully ..
If Rules Are Set, We Are Ruled By Them, If Groups Are Formed, We Are Grouped
Get It. Good. Goodbye :)
Tilll nexty time ..
By Martyn S L David
Loves xoxo
Sunday, September 20, 2009
When Does It Mean More ?
Most Of My Thoughts About Love And Relationships Arise While Watching Sex And The City - It Amazes Me How Insightful "Carrie Bradshaw" Really Is!
I Always Think About What She Writes On Her Computer And Last Night I Asked Myself This Question ..
"When Does Your Relationship Move From Infactuation To Love?"
Heres My Thoughts On The Structure Of A Relationship,
1) The Fake Stage -
Generally Lasts A Few Weeks To 2 Or 3 Months.
During This Time You Probably Were Attracted To Them With LUST- (Within The First Few Weeks Your Likely To Have Sex) When You Got To Know Them You Were ..
2) .. INFACTUATED!
Probably The Nicest Time In Your Entire Relationship - The Part When You Cant Stop Thinking About Them, When You Text Them 100 Times A Day, Talk To Them Over The Phone Til 2 In The Morning and When Your With Them You Just Get Your Camera Out Incesently! You Dream About The Future And Staying Together BUT Heres The Sad Part -
2B) "The Clause" No Not Santa Clause, Like A Clause In A Contract ..
No Matter How Much Time You Spend With Each Other, Its Never Enough, You Just Want More, You Worry When Your With Them About The Fact You Have To Go Home In An Hour, Or That You Wont See Them For A Week, All You Do Is Wish For The Day You Can Live And Be Together Always. This However Effectively Wastes Your Time, It Stops You Enjoying Your Time Together And Stops You From Being With Them.
3) Love .. Or Is It?
Time Youve Been Together Doesnt Really Matter Here But I Think 4-6 Months Minimum - At This Point, Infactuation And Indeed The Reality Of The Situation Settles Down. The Novelty In Effect Is Depleted, Now Your Used To Each Other And More Importantly You Can Honestly Say "I TRUST YOU" Like I Said, Timescale Isnt A Science, This Stage Comes After Tears, Tantrums, Trails, Smiles, Hugs, Kisses And Time - You Start Loving Them, And Not The Way They Make You Feel, The LUST Is Disastablished And The Infactuation Receeds, But Thats Not To Say The Relationship Stops Being Fun - Its Just Starts To Be REAL.
4) LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE
Its Just Love!
Congratulations - You Made It - Maybe Its All Worth It - Youve Got Forever To Find Out, Right?
So There Ive Done The Impossible And Actually Logically But Briefly Put A Relationship Onto Paper - Of Course If Your Following This Literally, Its A Pile Of Dung! Love Is NOT Logical And Thank Goodness!
"There Are Two Many Things In Life That Make Sense In Life, But Love Isnt One Of Them"
By
Martyn S L David
xoxo
I Always Think About What She Writes On Her Computer And Last Night I Asked Myself This Question ..
"When Does Your Relationship Move From Infactuation To Love?"
Heres My Thoughts On The Structure Of A Relationship,
1) The Fake Stage -
Generally Lasts A Few Weeks To 2 Or 3 Months.
During This Time You Probably Were Attracted To Them With LUST- (Within The First Few Weeks Your Likely To Have Sex) When You Got To Know Them You Were ..
2) .. INFACTUATED!
Probably The Nicest Time In Your Entire Relationship - The Part When You Cant Stop Thinking About Them, When You Text Them 100 Times A Day, Talk To Them Over The Phone Til 2 In The Morning and When Your With Them You Just Get Your Camera Out Incesently! You Dream About The Future And Staying Together BUT Heres The Sad Part -
2B) "The Clause" No Not Santa Clause, Like A Clause In A Contract ..
No Matter How Much Time You Spend With Each Other, Its Never Enough, You Just Want More, You Worry When Your With Them About The Fact You Have To Go Home In An Hour, Or That You Wont See Them For A Week, All You Do Is Wish For The Day You Can Live And Be Together Always. This However Effectively Wastes Your Time, It Stops You Enjoying Your Time Together And Stops You From Being With Them.
3) Love .. Or Is It?
Time Youve Been Together Doesnt Really Matter Here But I Think 4-6 Months Minimum - At This Point, Infactuation And Indeed The Reality Of The Situation Settles Down. The Novelty In Effect Is Depleted, Now Your Used To Each Other And More Importantly You Can Honestly Say "I TRUST YOU" Like I Said, Timescale Isnt A Science, This Stage Comes After Tears, Tantrums, Trails, Smiles, Hugs, Kisses And Time - You Start Loving Them, And Not The Way They Make You Feel, The LUST Is Disastablished And The Infactuation Receeds, But Thats Not To Say The Relationship Stops Being Fun - Its Just Starts To Be REAL.
4) LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE
Its Just Love!
Congratulations - You Made It - Maybe Its All Worth It - Youve Got Forever To Find Out, Right?
So There Ive Done The Impossible And Actually Logically But Briefly Put A Relationship Onto Paper - Of Course If Your Following This Literally, Its A Pile Of Dung! Love Is NOT Logical And Thank Goodness!
"There Are Two Many Things In Life That Make Sense In Life, But Love Isnt One Of Them"
By
Martyn S L David
xoxo
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